Better Days
Single release date: February 20, 2023
Album: Angels and Demons
Album release date: June 11, 2023
This was the one (sort of) that started it all. I mean as you may have recently seen, I made that Beryllium song with my little one. And in some ways THAT started it all. But ultimately - this is the one where I was like - "yes, this is something I should consider doing."
Before this I hadn't really written much in the realm of songs. I'd been composing music in other ways for a VERY long time. I know a long time is subjective.
I struggled with writing songs because I just never felt creative in that way. I also never wrote any poetry until like a week after my wife passed. But writing words like that was extremely powerful.
With Beryllium turned in and getting really cool feedback from classmates - I felt the urge. Maybe write a song... that is really meaningful. Maybe? Well it couldn't hurt to try.
So I tried. And it was... POWERFUL. The words flowed, and the words had deep meaning for me. And it was just kind of working. And I was still in the realm of weird. My music prior to this was usually quite weird in some way or another. I guess it was important to me to keep going down this path of pretty weird stuff - thus my target was sort of Experimental Pop.
After releasing the song to my personal YouTube channel - it relatively suddenly had "success." I say it like that because compared to many people, this was not huge success. But it had more than 400 plays in the first two days! By a week it was more than 1,000.
It made me wonder if this is something I should serious do... As in, like actually work with a distributor! Took a while to decide but it seemed like maybe this was worth pursuing.
I knew I wanted to be essentially "anonymous" though, so I removed the original and released under my shiny new persona: "Sarenrae."
There is a story behind my name - that I may someday explore. But for TODAY - well I'm just remembering Better Days.
If you haven't heard this one yet - give it a listen!
Better Days
The better days of life, they were ours
The worst, yeah they'll be mine
Oh and I know the leaves, they must drop
And the flowers, in bloom
They are the first to fall
Yes, my sunshine is gone, gone
The silence of your dreamless sleep
I envy now too much, too much to weepCan you see me, hear me, know me?
I would have stayed with you forever
Can you help me, change me, be with me?
Please be with me
The best days of life, may have past
The worst, maybe they'll be mine?
Yes, your sunshine is gone, oh are you gone?
As the stars that glide, along the sky, gone
They shine brightest, as they fall from high
I envy now the stars, the stars, I weepCan I see you, hear you, know you?
Can I be with you?
You might have stayed with me forever, forever
Be with meAs once I wept, if I could weep
My tears might shed, my tears might shed
To think I was not near you, not near you
To just watch you, just watch you
My tears might shed
To think I could gaze upon you
It's in my headAs once you saw, if you could see
You're in my head, can't leave my head
To think I could forget, forget you
To erase you, erase you
To think I could forget you
My tears have shed